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I've had my eye on this line for a while, heard a lot of good things but
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·Teatree Mint smells awesome and has a minty tingle... nothing
overbearing, just slightly enough to feel refreshing. This one is
lighter so I decided to use this as a co-wash the 1st go round.

·Coconut Milk smells delishus and is very creamy. I used this one as my
combthru / primer... can we say AMAZING? Its thick enough to moisturize
my curls, but not too thick to be heavy or greasy feeling. And my
curls... look like curls with out any manupulation.

Organix is eco-friendly, organic, and sulfate & paraben free. And they
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Unforgivable silence

Shocked by the nothingness you hear
The silence is deafening to your ears
You've called my phone but to no avail
I didn't even attempt to respond to your email
Full of I'm sorries and I apologize
Sounds to me like a bundle of lies
You watch and wait for a "hey" in an im
But deleted you are so I wouldn't see your name again
Removed that temptation to reach out to you
Relinqushed the interest in anything you do
Refuse to read an update of status on facebook
Unfriended so I won't have to take a second look
At your name, and your doings
Your comings and your goings
Then a stumble to your profile and a peek into your pics
Just to see what your up to, and then I'm feelin sick
Wishin I was with you, needing it so bad
Missin you and the good times that we had
But also missing the point of the silence you deserve
So I'm standing my ground I swear I'll not swerve
From the path of freedom that I so yearn
And the respect that thru all these years I have earned
Put up with things I didn't have to
Allowed myself in situations just to prove
That no matter what I would always be here
No matter how hurt I was or how little u care
No matter how damaging... you wouldn't be alone
I argued nagged and pleaded while you'd hymn and moan
Annoyed by my voice but not realizing that its cuz I once cared
But that unforgivable silence befalls you and now you're scared
Silence is much louder and cuts way deeper than any words screamed
More painful than you've ever fathomed or barely even dreamed
Lacking the strength to forgive and ability to forget
Back into my world, my life my heart... I just can't let
Yes that deafening silence is screeching in your ear
I posess no words to say to you, for I no longer care.
©Deanna D. Morris

Bullet Proof Soul by Sade

I was so in love with you
You rarely see a love that's true
Wasn't that enough for you
Wasn't that enough for you
I would climb a mountain
I wouldn't want to see you fall
Rock climb for you
And give you a reason for it all
You kept on thinking
You were the only one
Too busy thinking
Love is a gun
Hit me like a slow bullet
Like a slow bullet
It took me some time to realise it
You kept on thinking
You were the only one
Too busy thinking
Love is a gun
I know the end before
The story's been told
It's not that complicated
But you're gonna need a bullet proof soul
You kept on thinking
You were the only one
Too busy thinking
Love is a gun
I know the end before
The story's been told
It's not that complicated
But you're gonna need a bullet proof soul
You were trigger happy baby
You never warned me let me free
It's not that complicated
But you're going to need a bullet proof soul
Think you got it but you got all the trouble you need
I came in like a lamb
But I intend to leave like a lion
It hit me like a slow bullet
It hit me like a slow bullet
 

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Weave woes.

There is a misconception of the process of weaves. Many women fall into
the snare of thought that when you put a weave in, u just forget about,
and give up on your own hair.

I'm here to inform you that that is not true at all. True, a weave
serves the purpose of adding hair where there may not be any by either
adding length or fullness, but it is not an indefinite fix. I use weaves
to give my hair a break from styling and heat stress, and along with the
rest of you also to add length and/or body when I want extra, until mine
grows out.

I have chopped my hair off twice in my lifetime once in '07 (just
because), and again at the end of last year, I decided to go natural and
cut my relaxed hair off. Currently I'm sewn up until more of my length
returns. Meanwhile, I never forget about my hair, or use weave as a
permanent substite or replacement for my head grown hair; aint nothing
better than having your own hair... NOTHING.

If you want longer hair take care of your own hair:
·use a stimulating shampoo and conditioner combo that's right for your
hair needs.

I like: Pantene's Beautiful Lengths shampoo and conditioner. Although
its not stimulating, it uses aqua current technology to direct moisture
deeper into the strand protecting it from damage, seals the cuticle, and
keeps ends in tact for less frequent trims; giving the hair a chance to
grow out.

VIA naturals preparatory shampoo
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gives the scalp a fresh start, stimulates the scalp, exfoliates pore
clogging debris that prevent growth. I usually use this for the 1st
lather then I proceed with my fave moisturizing shampoo.

I'm currently using:
Deity America Plant Shampoo. It stimulates blood circulation to the
scalp, all natural, leaves my hair feeling silky, and I love the smell.

·Deep condition or treat your hair every 2 weeks (right before a weave
is put in and after it's taken out)

My faves are: Hair mayonaise by Organic Root stimulator or the one by
Africa's Best.

Profectiv's mega growth deep strengthening growth conditioner

VIA Growth Therapy Conditioner
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I'm currently using:
Hair Mayonaise by Africa's Best. It's excellent for my hair before and
after a weave. It leaves my hair soft, moisturized, easy combout, and
strong. My scalp feels rejuvenated when I rinse

Nexxus Aloxxi as a bi-weekly treatment to undo any heat damage I may
have done to the hair left out. It works perfect while my hair is
weaved, it treats my hair with out the heavy build up... i.e no greasy
looking weave.

·Get regular trims (every 2 or 3 months)

·Try taking a supplement that encourages hair growth my faves are:

GNC's Horsetail
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Andrew Lessman's Healthy Hair Skin & Nails which contains MSM (excellent
for rapid hair growth)
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·Don't forget your hair underneath the braids and tracks.
BEFORE your weave is applied, make sure you moisturize your scalp with
none other than something to stimulate growth.
I Like: Organic Root Stimulator's carrot oil creme- with nettle,
horsetail, carrot oil and other known nourishers for the scalp that help
the hair grow up big and strong.

VIA naturals stimulating gro serum
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I always apply this to my scalp daily especially when I get the
notorious weave itch, it works way better than slappin my own head. Its
light, not greasy, but it gets the job done.

Salerm Biokera for hair loss
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is an amazing leave-in after a weave wash! Apply to scalp all over and
feel it go to work. (6 vials per pack)

If fuller hair is what you want,

· 1st you may need to cut hair evenly. This makes hair look much fuller
in appearance being that all the strands are stacked on the same level.
If this leaves you hair shorter than desired, then rock the weave a
little longer until it reaches the desired length.

· Once your length is "you approved", choose to use volumizing hair
products:

I like: Pantene's Flat to Volume shampoo and conditioner. The root
lifter spray gel adds to the effect

Body Envy by Herbal essences
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is a great line. I'm a fan of the Weightless Volumizing Gel, it
volumizes my hair, doesn't dry it out or make it crunchy. With the
fusion of pink coral flower & white nectarine they smell awesome!

Also try Doo Gro Mega thick shampoo and conditioner. It has organic
bodybuiders that give mass to the hair strand.

·DO NOT RELAX HAIR BEFORE PUTTING IN A WEAVE. Unless you want
breakage... don't do it. Relaxers break down the chemistry of the hair,
leaving it in an already weak state. Pulling it into tight braids and
then sewing tracks onto it only adds un-needed stress on your tresses
and pops the hair off. All of which is the culprit in the excessively
thin appearance of the hair once the weave is taken out, leaving you
with no choice but to indefinitely rely on a weave.

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My natural hair story

I don't have children so initially I went natural for me. Although my
hair was long and "healthy", it was always shedding. I didn't relax it
that often I'd try to only get a rlaxer every 2 months, I didn't want to
overprocess it, and I don't like my hair dead straight. My hair is on
the fine side so I liked the body it gave me. When I'd have about 2
inches of new growth I'd was always threaten to chop it off and start
natural. But I'd just go back to relaxing it and not cutting anything.

When I started beauty school we started reading chapters on the
properties of the hair and scalp, and chemical texture services... I
realized the way relaxers break down the chemistry of the hair, but I
was hardheaded and continued relaxing it because I "needed" it.

Then I began working as an assistant hairstylist at a black salon in the
city, where my boss was determined to convert her relaxed clients to
naturals. I was always curious about my natural hair, forgetting that
people used to comment on my hair's natural texture and feel. But the
thing was, I had a head full of hair and was skeptical about cutting it
all off and starting over. Lee (hairstylist) told me that's not the only
way to grow a perm out. So I had her weave up my hair, and left it in
for about 2 months.

When I took it down, I would press my roots out. I was so impressed with
the difference in the look and feel between my pressed hair and my
relaxed hair that I just wound up getting my BC and I either press my
natural length or rock it out in various textures of weaves until it
grows to the length I can really work with both natural and straight.

Like I said I don't have children, but I have a lot of younger siblings
4 sisters and 3 brothers, 3 of them young enough to be my kids. My
little sisters have natural hair, and want to be just like me, so I
wanted to be the example and show that they don't NEED a relaxer like
society wants us to think we do.

Aside from being an example for my little sisters (8 and 5) who wanted
their hair to look like my relaxed hair, I was actually jealous of their
hair. I wanted my hair to look like theirs, I knew I would have so much
fun being able to wear more than one texture without messing with the
chemistry of my hair or irreversibly damaging it.

Plus I noticed that since I stopped stringing myself out on that creamy
crack... I've been getting migraines A LOT less frequently. Hmmm......

Natural Herbal Hair Vinegar Rinse Cleanser

This natural rinse is a cleanser that removes build-up and residue
without sulfates. Here are the instructions I found on how to mix and
use this rinse.

http://www.justnaturalskincare.com/hair/thick-vinegar-rinse-hair.html?gclid=CPylz9DJz6ACFRlRagodDGF7zQ

Addicted confessions of a true you-head

Every time I think it's over and its the end
Whenever I end a chapter let a new one begin
Matta fact, scratch that I closed that book
Chose a new one, new subject and gave that one a look
Just when I think it's over and through
Only when I think I'm sure I'm over you
I finally think I'm done and had enough
Tired and fatigued and done with your stuff
You find a way to swoop in and change my mind
Get me to thinking, hoping, wishing to rewin
And go back, well really GET back to not where
But what we were, knowing in my heart you should be here
With me, filling me up with happiness
Instead you got me feeling that emptiness
That hole in my heart that burn in my soul
Got me going out my mind and losing all control
Got me fiendin' to sniff it, shoot it, roll it, puff it or blow it
Anything to get you back in my system and before I know it
I'm back at it again, back in the habit
Back on this thing, yea i know it, I'm addict
Back in my head something i just can't shake
I need it baby, like a fat kid needs cake
It's a craving so strong yes it's true
I can't believe I'm back to being hooked on the drug called you
I've gone away to rehab, I did my 12 steps
Detoxed so that there was not even a trace left
Of you in my system, so how could this be?
How could you still be callin for me
Screaming my name, drawing me in
Making me remember the way I felt back then
When I made you my life and tried every and anything I could
To keep you close so you can make me feel good
Missing your touch
Missing that rush
The feeling of pure you running thru my veins
Blinding and numbing me of all my pains
Until I realized... you're what hurt me the most
Took me to my lowest made me this ghost
How could something love me so bad and hurt me so good?
I left you alone, stopped loving you cuz you told me i should
I almost made a year of being absolutely you free
Clean and sober, good for me!
well so I thought until we met again
Then all those feelings from before came flooding back in
You saying things you know i wanna hear
Talking all that sweet shit in my ear
OMG! And i try to shake it off, shake it out of my head
Successfully too... only now it's in my heart instead
I don't wanna be in this torture called love
Just can't go back to you being the only thing I'm thinking of
Don't wanna love you no more I just can't do it
Can't risk it all for that one last hit
For old time sake or nothing like that
I'm glad where I am and staying where I'm at
You broke my heart and left me for dead
Didn't look back you just kept moving ahead
Without one second thought
Now I'm the one confused and caught
Cuz you come and just take everything back
I'm supposed to be hating you but you threw that outta whack
Stuck in the middle of what i want and what I need
I need you but I want what I have, or is it the other way around... see what i mean?
Lost and confused, the story of my life
All this back and forthing ain't nothing but trife
You don't know what you want and you're confused
And the confusion within you makes me feel used
Or maybe the real problem is you knew all along what you wanted
But the thought of being so deep makes you feel haunted
Scared of the unknown or the what you think you know
Can't wait 'til the day I can say I told you so
Cuz the problem is this, and you won't admit
that you've been wanting me the same as i want you... see you too are an addict
Slowly you're falling back in the habit too!
Only difference is; that I'm your drug babes, mine is you.

Where are you running to??

What the hell is wrong with young girls today? So many are so busy
tryina grow up too damn fast! Goin out and doin things they shouldn't be
doing way before they should. Make up... nail tips... choice in riskee
clothing... hair dyes/ highlights... alcohol... cigarettes... drugs...
tattoos... body piercings... sex... babies.

Too many of our young princesses are becoming hoes, birds smutts, and
just plain loose before our very eyes, and way 2 many of them are
pretending 2 be proud of it. They make themselves look old haggy and
baggy. Smfh. They don't realize that when u start shit 2 early 4 ur body
2 handle... u body doesn't kno how 2 react so everything goes haywire
and that's why most teens look like they pushin 30 with bags under
they're eyes... stretch marks... cellulite... lookin drained, as if they
lived a full life when their life aint even begin yet.

Some things should be saved for later 2 have something 2 look forward 2.
Too many girls have no self respect and have lost all self worth.
Thinkin that they have 2 do any and everything just 2 fit in. And they
walk around with a false sense of confidence as if they feel good about
themselves when in most cases that's not the case. A lot of them suffer
from low self esteem and the need 2 fit in and that's what makes them do
such things.

Smh... because I don't kno what else 2 say. But there needs 2 be a
change. This shit is an epidemic and it needs 2 be ended. Death rates
from aids in the black/ hispanic community is up and still rising...
teen pregnancy is ever rising (I done seen 2 dam many "babies" pushin
strollers), abortion rates are up as well.

All are results of young girls livin adult lives puttin their bodies,
emotions, and mentalities thru way 2 much b4 they're ready.

Can't take no more

I wish that you could see
that your hurtin me
feel the pain I feel inside.
I just can't understand
cuz you are my man
how could you abandon your,
responsibilities
neglectin my needs
and plantin your seeds around.
Now I can't take no more
guess you got to go
Your shits at the door
goodbye.<br />
You keep on tellin me
how your lovin me
and you wanna be with me.
And im your everything
everything you need
I'm the air you breath...
but everything you do
sheds light on the truth
guess I got my proof
You lied.
Now I can't take no more
guess you got to go
Your shits at the door
goodbye.<br />
You chose me to be the one
now look what you've done
hope you had your fun.
Just know,
everything you do
To me falls on you,
karma it aint new.
And now,
Your bac to tellin me
where you wanna be
guess that's s'pose to be with me.
But I can't take no more
yes you've got to go
Your shits at the door
goodbye.

in luv again

U said that u loved me you told me we'd always b So now I'm fallin in
luv again. U touched me u had my heart, u told me we'd never part and
now I'm falin in luv again. I've spent all my life waitin on you. And
I've spent all my time thinkin bout u. I don't wanna cuz I kno the
truth, but now I've fallen in luv again.<br />U chose me 2 b ur girl,
and I chose u 2 be my world cuz I was fallin in luv again. U tell me how
u feel and u swear that that its 4real and now I've fallen in luv again.
Its 2 late 4 u 2 walk away. U should mean all of the things u say, cuz
there's games in life u just don't play with my heart I'm fallin in luv
again.

He said "women always want what they can't have"

Yeah you were right when u said we want what we can't have, but that's
true with us as humans<br />Not just with women<br />It'd be unfair 2
pretend 2 be feelin u<br />Knowin that u feel the way that u do<br
/>Stringin u along like a puppet on a string.<br />When in reality our
relationship would be nothing more than a sharade, a sham, a hoax, a
phony, a fake.<br />Tell me what good or sense would that make.<br
/>None! And when u find out later on how would u feel?<br />That i had
led u on instead of keepin it real.<br />How do u walk away pride in
tact when truth is revealed?<br />Then I'd forever be labeled in ur
heart and mind as a bitch.<br />All because I just couldn't figure out
which<br />Way I wanna go (pause) and who with<br />The decision is mine
2 make & I can't make it<br />The cake is mine 4 the taking but I just
can't take it<br />The dough is in the pan but I can't even bake it<br
/>(Lmao... I was on a roll)<br />All the leaves are on the ground but I
just can't... *lmbbo!<br />I'm just emotionally disturbed<br />And itd
be unfair because you don't deserve<br />To be taken/ dragged on this
ride with me<br />My true feelings I've tried to hide from you 2 see<br
/>This internal war I've been secretly goin thru<br />Its got me not
knowing what I wanna do<br />Tearing me up inside and killing me<br
/>Softly, slowly, but oh so surely<br />I'm done with that dude and all
his bull-ish<br />All his lies, the whole thing and what came with it<br
/>Threw it all away now its no more than a faded memory<br />Almost
forgotten, reality settin in I'm startin 2 remember me<br />Lost myself
in feelings, emotions, and what my heart's needing<br />Or what I
thought it needed. That little thing can be so misleading<br />Led me to
think that he was the one<br />Made me want to bear his daughter or
son<br />Forced me to believe that one day I'd be his wife<br />He'd
make me whole and complete his life<br />Forever and ever happy as
hell<br />Where's fantasy & where's reality? I can't tell.<br />I don't
know which one is crazy love, life, him...<br />Or maybe just me my mind
is growing dim<br />I don't kno if I believe in love anymore <br />I
don't even kno what I've been fighting for<br />Never in my life have I
felt that strong 4 1 man<br />And never again... I really don't think I
can.<br />My heart's been broken beyond repair<br />Pain's unbearable
beyond compare<br />I don't know if I can do this again<br />Or even if
I want to from fear I may go insane<br />Love aint easy but its not
supposed 2 be this hard<br />I just wish someone warned me from the
start.<br />I would never wanna do that 2 some one else<br />And make
them feel the way that I've felt.<br />So I'm sorry for any pain that
I've caused you<br />But I can't be with you if I feel I'm being forced
to<br />I hope you find someone who will love you as much as u love
her<br />And that she won't be stuck in limbo heart belonging to
another.<br /><br />I don't think we want what we can't have... I
believe we can't always have what we want.

Free writing to free myself

Came 2 the conclusion that I'm tired of coasting along and allowing
others to take control, just waiting for things 2 happen the way I want
them to. I'm a good woman, with brains beauty and morals. I know my
strengths acknowlege my weaknesses and am sure of my worth. I know I'm
worthy of more than what I'm being offered and I'm done tolerating it.

I sat back and watched this series play out because I know I've done
wrong in the past and figured I'd let this shit play itself out in the
way it felt it needed to. So I'd finally be forgiven and we could get
past and move on from what happened years ago.

I liked the main character of this show and I was finally in a place
emotionally, and mentally to be ready for forward movement. I let the
walls down and opened myself up to allow my heart to accept ALL the good
I just knew was coming my way. Only to be deeply disappointed, and to be
(what I feel) intentionally hurt, to be gotten back at... instead of
what I thought; getting back with. Neglected and ignored is not 4 me.

I am not a pair of hard denim jeans, expensive leather shoes, or a
flippin wild horse... I do NOT need 2 be broken in, neither do I need 2
be broken down. I know my self worth and I kno I'm worthy of more... and
I'm NOT askin too much to ask to be treated like a queen. I have the
intentions, and ability 2 treat u like a king but I'm not gonna play
myself out doing so while I'm bein treated like the freakin court
jester... "homie don't play that". I kno my self worth, I know that I'm
worthy of more than I've been receiving here and I have no intentions or
even the right 2 expect or accept ANYTHING less.

So no more coasting for me. I'm takin the cruise control off, taking the
wheel and puttin the "pedal 2 the metal" and u can either get on board
or get left behind... either way I'm not gonna tie u up and force u 2
come along for the ride. But when I'm gone... I'm gone. And on that
note... I'm done!

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Freestyle... if u may

A lot on my mind even more on my chest.
Hand on my mouth cuz I feel it's wuts best.
Played nice 4a while 2 preserve ur feelings but...
I'm bout 2 say ahh and really just not give a fuck.
Its a task 4 me 2 be nice, natural to be mean
Be the biggest bitch that u ever even seen
Met known or heard of
pipe dreamed or thought of
Take my kindness for weakness
Mistake my mildness for meekness
Well surprise muthaf*cka! Bitch
I told u not 2 do that shit
To this pretty ticking little time bomb
Bout 2 explode
See what i mean? No, get u some bausch & lomb
Lock and load
Cuz I begged you, please do not be fooled
Appearances deceive, still u misconstrued
Confused the pretty face with soft punk bitchness
Reality just stepped in, we bout 2 sho u the business

imitation= fustration

Ppl always wanna act like wuts urs is theirs
Put a lil investment in ur life like stock market shares
Yet as flattering as that may be
Why the hell you tryin so hard 2 be like me?
Live ur life hunny, and I'll live mine
Shit is crazy, tryina steal sum1 elses shine
Why do ppl have 2 be that way?
Do wut i do and say what i say
Try 2 put a lil spin on it to make it their own
But at the end of the day it always comes bac home
Where it originated, the place of its birth
And all will kno I said and did that shit 1st
Although u try 2 hide I think its plain 2 see
Everything u do and say... is just like me
My life aint no mirror babes live ur own life
Struggle ur struggle deal w/ ur own trife
Blaze ur own trails hunn and do wut U do
Stop tryina be me cuz I wud never be you
Not tryina play u baby girl im just sayin...
I would never wanna play a role sum 1 else is currently playin
I wudnt wanna be u not even if u were payin
Sorry! But a biter's the only thing ur portrayin
Stop tryina walk a couple miles in my shoes
The moves I make and the words that I use
R not 4 u 2 rehearse and recite, these are my personal lessons learned
My own gifts and talents that I've earned
And blessed with but worked hard to hone
So that its not just another talent or hobby I own
This is sumthing I luv 2 do, my way 2 let ppl see wuts inside of me
Not sumthin I saw sum1 else do and tried it out inadvertedly
Naturally I do this since I was 7, this is how its been
Expressin myself freely with wordz, piece of paper and pen
I do this shit in my sleep ma no effort and not extra thought
Shit just flows thru me, sumthing that can't be copied or taught
As 4 the rest of me, I aint nowhere near perfection
I have a lot of flaws example being the way I show affection
And how I fukk up sumtimes, yea I sed it I'll admit it
Or how I tried 2 squeeze myself into situations; I just couldn't fit it
I try so hard 2 please those around me but it just don't work
Im angry cold bitter selfish self centered and ppl think im a jerk
Can't help sumthings like the way I feel about myself & others
I feel alone like an only child although I have 3 brothers
4 sisters, grandmother and a dad, but I feel so alone
Don't have 2 many friends so I dnt spend 2 much time on the phone
Sit alone and sit in silence and words just come to me
Or I might hum a lil at first and make up a lil melody
Then I think of how im feelin and the words take over me
Sounds crazy... this is why I say there can never be another me
I say these things cuz with the good comes the bad
Life will pass u by and ull never kno wut u had
2 busy tryina be sum 1 else especially me
Isn't there sum1 else ud rather try 2 be?
I live my life make my own mistakes
Look and learn from others 2 see wut marks theirs makes
Not repeatin dumb shit sum 1 else tried and failed at
Seen it witnessed it but still say "imma try that!"
Like I sed bad comes wit the good... dnt be like me
Flaws come with blessings, I am the only person I know how 2 be.
No lines, no notes, no script no scenes... I do me perfectly.
Cuz athough I aint perfect, I am perfectly me
Find u and be perfectly u
And stop doin wut I do...

flaws and all??

We can't look for perfection in an imperfect world. Ppl expect to be accepted "flaws and all" and that's how it should be but the things you're counting as flaws aren't flaws at all. Someone being obese or too skinny is a flaw, some ppl can't help their weight for MANY reasons. Having a mole in an obscure place is a flaw. Having a health or mental illness is a flaw. Someone's assets being too big or too small (depending on how u look at it) is a flaw.

Personally, I think ppl should check their definitions cuz flaws are things we can't change in or about ourselves and have no choice but to embrace them and hope others do the same. Lying- is not a flaw its something we can help and stop doing. Neither is cheating or stealing; intentionally setting out and going after something or someone that isn't yours... not a flaw! Being a manipulative person isn't a flaw. Intentionally hurting others; tearing them down and slandering their name, definitely not a flaw. Smiling in peoples faces and turning around and talking bad about EVERY single one of them. Doing and saying things that would naturally damage trust and confidence in you is NOT A FLAW!!!

If I don't like you and choose to distance myself from you, its not because I fail to accept your flaws... its becuz I refuse to tolerate poor personality traits and bad intentions. I'm not perfect so I don't expect perfection from anyone. But I will not subject myself to intentional misconduct that's been slapped with a label of being a flaw.
So when there ARE things we CAN change about us but we refuse to do so... we can only expect to be rejected at some point. And can't sit around making up sad stories and singing sad songs to convince ourselves along with others, that WE are victims in the situation.
You basically got what you deserved get over it.


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